In
my last post I alluded to having a Divine encounter. This encounter has
provided me with a new way of perceiving everything. I’m becoming
less of an individual, and more of a splash of paint on a Universal canvas. In
laymen’s terms, I’m becoming a better person with each passing day, but laymen’s
terms don’t accurately describe what I have been feeling and seeing. In this
post, I am going to share a moment I had. This moment resulted from the
Divine encounter. I won’t share the encounter specifically because I still don’t
understand it. Anyway, this post is about Love, so if you want to hear about
Love, then this is your place. Before going on, I want to share one of my
personal truths: One cannot see God and not see Love, because Love is truly the
gateway to any spiritual higher learning. God is Love and Love is God.
Lately, I have been feeling “called” to be outside.
Nothing too crazy. Just imagine the feeling of wanting a cigarette or a glass
of water. I’ve had a thirst for being outdoors. Whenever I want a break at work, I step out the backdoor to admire what little greenery is still standing among
the garbage and split grey-black asphalt. In the mornings, I walk across the
street to the community park to experience the energy of life minutes before
sunrise. Often times I meditate, stretch, and write. But, there have been
plenty of times when I would simply sit and feel
everything around me. While at home, I step outside periodically to soak up
whatever is going on in that moment. I bet you’re wondering why I’m driving
this “thirst” point so hard. Well, it’s crucial that you understand how I’m
thirsting before I tell you what I am thirsting for. Those moments I spend
outside are all driven by my desire to recreate an experience. That’s the
rational Truth, and it is heavy. One experience was moving enough to create a
new hobby. I never particularly liked being outside prior to the experience. I didn’t hate it. I
just rarely thought about it, but as you have read; now it feels like a necessity.
On
Monday, I was cruising down a quiet road heading back to work. The weather was
decent, so I had my windows down. I like to allow my left arm to hang casually
out the window because the wind makes it feel free. Both the passenger window
and the driver window are down so the wind can whipped in-and-out as it pleased. Inside,
I had a song going, and I may as well have been auditioning for Broadway
because I was into it. I can recall driving over some train tracks and turning
left onto a semi-windy road. One vehicle was ahead of me on the road, and I remember
admiring that the trip was peaceful because I had the roads to myself. Because of
this, I looked up and noticed swirling clouds in the sky. They were fluffy to
the point of grandeur, and they seemed to reflect every color option between
grey and blue. One set of clouds was swirling one direction and another cloud swirled
in an opposing direction. This motion allowed me to see the depth of the
clouds, but I remember forcing myself to look down. All of this happened in a
matter of seconds, but it was one of those moments in your mind that operate
outside the laws of time. With my eyes back on the road, I approached a “T-intersection,”
in which I was driving along the top of the “T.” As I drove past the perpendicular
cars I realized that there were about 5 cars at the stop sign, and that I would
not have the roads to myself for long. Once safely beyond the turning cars I glanced
up towards the sky again. An air plane drifted across my sight as if it were
saying, “hello.” I realized I was never alone. I became aware of the potential
that the plane above me could be carrying over a hundred people. I became aware
of the people on the road, and the fact that each of these people had lives,
stories, and perspectives. I became aware of the swirling clouds once more, and
I was hit with a wave of selfless pure Love. It was humbling. I realized how
small I am, but also how big I am. I realized we were all here together, and
always have been, together. I felt the love of life and the love of human. I
felt grateful to be a part of it all, and I was able to appreciate all of
Creation at once.
Why
wouldn’t I want to re-create that? I want it at all times. I want to tell
everyone I know because I want everyone to feel what I felt. But, I didn’t find
it in the Bible or church. That part scared me at first. I realized that I didn’t
have this experience from any conventional means. There are people everywhere
searching for experiences just like this in religions across the globe, so I
feel compelled to tell people The Truth. If any God were real, he, she, or
them, would not create a system in which they could be so easily undermined by opposition.
Basically, the fact that we have the choice to create religions shows the
nature of God. What God would create something that has to create dogmas and
rules just to get to him/her/them? If you believe that your God is not bigger
than your religion than your view may be skewed. The concept of God concludes
that God created us. Humans are born with will, so by nature God must be
greater than human will, or possess equal amounts of will. In that experience I
had, I realized that God truly is all of it and more of it.
I
think this is a good place to stop. Next time I will go into detail about what
I learned about the nature Love.
